The beginning…

This week, I discovered that one of the most difficult things to do is to change your mind.  Any kind of change is challenging, but changing your perspective, your mind, really requires a kind of will power that doesn’t come easily.  For the last few days, I’ve been deep in prayer and meditation, pondering my life and the direction it’s taking.  The idea that this area of my life needed work isn’t a new concept to me. I’ve been fighting this battle for years, knowing that “there must be more to life than this“, but lacking the courage and the faith to do anything about it.

Today, that changes.  Mostly, because I’ve found within myself, with God’s help, the courage to do what it’s taken years for me to do: change my mind.    There are so many people in life who never discover their potential, never peel away the outer layers to find what drives them at their core, what makes them happy.  I don’t want to be one of those people who lives life in the dark, going through the motions, saying the right things and making the right robotic moves, patiently waiting for the moment when it all finally ends.

I’ve decided that living a life that just goes through the motions and pays the bills isn’t fair to me,  to those I love, or to God, Who gave me the potential that hasn’t been allowed to grow into what He intended when He created me.

This means that change is necessary – not just any change, but a transformation of my mind.  The decisions I make during this leg of my journey won’t always be popular, but I have decided not to continue being worried about making a mistake or what other people will think. And I don’t plan to keep conforming to what everyone else thinks I should do – it’s just fear, disguised as carefulness.

Life is too short to be lived in fear, not when I could be living my dreams instead.  So, the transformation begins.  And I’m discovering that change is scary-but it’s really exciting, too.

 

 

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.

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